Jessica Rose 2.0

So you’re probably wondering why all of a sudden I’ve started posting again...right? Oh what do you mean you didn’t even notice I was gone? Cool cool.

This little corner of the internet owned by me Jessica Rose is just over 4 years old but I feel like I can’t celebrate. It feels like we’ve been on a break and we haven’t really been together 4 years it’s more like 3 and then one year on and off. That sucks. I hate that I let myself down, this blog was something I adored and to some extent I still do.

Let’s break it down. If you know me personally or have ever read my blog you probably know I suffer with anxiety issues and if you didn’t well.. surprise! They’re WAY better than they ever have been *touch wood* and a large part of that is due to moving to Leeds, but I won’t get too much into it. However where this becomes relavent to the story is that a large part of my anxiety boils down to perfectism. Due to that I either fully consume myself with something and don’t stop until I’m satisfied or I do the complete opposite and run away pretending it never existed. That’s exactly what I did. I ran.

Someone else took over my blog for a while and that was great and the posts are fantastic but it wasn’t me, I wasn’t writing I wasn’t doing what I loved to do. I feel out of love with it. This isn’t the first time this has happened either, over the 4 years I’ve been doing this I’ve fallen out with Jessica Rose a number of times, not because I wasn’t getting views or companies weren’t emailing me it was purely because I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t writing what I wanted, I wasnt up to date with my photography so I was stressing. My skills progress so much from shoot to shoot as I am still very much learning so I didn’t want to post photos from 5 months ago as it just didn’t represent my work standard.

I truly appreciate from the bottom of my heart anyone who still comes over and reads, even if I haven’t posted a new blog I look at my stats and people are on here, reading all posts I don’t know but I appreciate it. Of course it’s not about the views but it is cool to think that I’m on 64k page views when on my two year I was on about 30k and was posting a hell of a lot more in 2016. My goal is to eventually hit 100k cause I just think that’s truly insane! I am well aware that probably not 60 thousand different people have visited me but that means that I’ve had reoccurring readers, even if that is just my mum and auntie Claire that means a hell of a lot more!

I’ve decided that I’m gonna give this another shot, I want to write, I want to create. One of my favourite things to do would be visit somewhere have a great time and run home to my computer to document it. Or the excitement of wanting to rip open a package and photograph and review a product, or finish a book just so I could tell you that I preferred the movie. I just loved blogging and I still do but from now on I’m not taking it so seriously! I’m bored of saying “I wish I could blog about that” now I’m just gonna blog about it.

I don’t need to post something just cause I know people will read it, I don’t need to just write posts that help people. I’m going to write posts that I want to read. I’m still going to do photography posts but I don’t just want a photography blog I want a blog that represents me. That includes; Disney, travelling, memories, experiences, books anything and everything!

Here’s to Jessica Rose 2.0!

All the love,
Jess x